I have been previously implementing a new creative project. A great deal of energy and enthusiasm being spent. Lots of productive time making something new. Bouncing my ideas away from others inside a coaching group. But each time I set about a new journey of developing, I have discovered myself becoming angry.
How come this happen? What exactly is this anger about? What is going on?
My mentor and that i were discussing this. She wondered aloud this thought: “It feels like the tender spots are where you are angry”… yeah. Very tender. The anger is telling me something.
Finding that it is hard to maintain an undertaking picking anger throughout, I wanted to find away out to function “through” or “around” the anger. So, I distract myself with painting, stories, dancing… something creative, but more mundane and a bit mindless. This creative energy frees my mind so that I can “trick” my anger into thinking I’m busy with things.
When I do this I call it “spinning”. Spinning reminds me of the stories from the spinning wheel where I could get busy creating (just like the wool for the wheel). This paves the way to metaphor and takes me faraway from my must “control” an undertaking.
When I began drawing this image… of your spinning wheel… I believed of “turning straw to gold”. I used to be reminded again of the story of Rumpelstilskin. You know, usually the one… the millers daughter, the dad says “she can spin straw into gold” to the king… and also the king desires to check this out… if she cannot, she’ll go to death… ? Then, an odd little man appears. He tells her he can spin straw into gold… however it will go to a price to her.
I discovered the tale and focus several versions from it. It resonated when camping. However, because i usually do, Cleaning it once a to logically “organize” the storyline. This caused me to become more frustrated, when i has not been seeing or feeling what this story was looking to tell me.
So I returned to my “dream capture” work. Someone said the storyplot as if it were a goal I had created had. Then, Used to do these:
Listed out each of the characters
Listed the “key words” from the story that resonated with me at night
Re-read each word and wrote what that word meat in my opinion inside my unique circumstances
And after that… I began to notice what the story was saying. Here is what I came across
The little man (Rumplestilskin)=anger/creative fire/naming
The miller’s daughter=rest/creativity/giving
Spnning wheel=creating/spinning/asking for help
The baby=creation (project, artwork… )
While these “characters” comes with a independent role, ALL of the characters create one “psyche” for me. Just about everyone has of these qualities within us.
In order to create something, it requires much energy… and rest is additionally needed. We’ve got to give of ourselves and request for help.
In the end, your baby is born and we will not cease. It really is our “creation” and we’re surprised about what we have made. Also, what can be done to have there.
What did I learn?
Until this story resonates with me. Also, this story will repeat itself time and again when i still create, rest, people for assistance and complete a task. Although Rumpelstilskin stomps himself in the ground after the tale, that little man will likely be back… followed by time, I’ll know his name.
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